In trying to define my beliefs and those
underlying the church I created as an outer statement of
my innermost beliefs, I realized how very private much of
my being is. However, it feels important to describe some
of the tenets that direct my life and my service.
At the age of four, I was very unhappy
about circumstances on this Planet and asked God to take
me home. I stood out in my front yard and looked up in the
Sky and said that this is a place where people hurt each
other, where they destroy animals, and where they have no
reverence for life. I begged to be relieved of my life so
I could go to a place of love and harmony.
I saw a face in the Heavens. A great
being began speaking. I did not believe then or now that
He was God, merely one of His trusted servants. He said I
had until I was 35 or 40 to make myself as perfect as possible
and then my work would begin. At 30, I began living as though
I were subject to religious vows. At 35, I took those vows,
and later was ordained so that I could begin building my
My deepest belief is that all is love.
However, we are lost, and we search frantically for what
is missing so that we will feel our true natures and be complete.
is both passionate and gentle. It is passionate in the classical
sense: inspired, reverent, fervent, alive with Divinity.
If you love, you see the divinity in Gods creation.
You see it in people, in animals, in plants, in the movement
of air and water, in the Cosmic Grandeur. I cannot look at
the Sky and feel important. I am in awe of the Majesty and
humble. When I look down, I see nothing but work for I see
a world totally out of balance.
I made my commitment to do my part to
remedy whatever can be healed. Where health and healing are
concerned, I subscribe to the same beliefs that govern my
innermost and most private life.
I subscribe to the doctrine of harmlessness.
It is for this reason that I cannot embrace modern medicine.
I cannot accept medicine that intrudes morbid
substances into the body, that uses toxic chemicals to
treat illnesses, that causes side effects that are sometimes
more horrible than the original illness. I also cannot accept
a system of medicine that has been founded on cruel experiments
on innocent animals. I do not believe that my well being
requires the suffering of any other creatureand I cannot
deviate from this belief and still hope to function as a
At the tender age of three, I was a
victim of modern medicine. I received a tainted smallpox
vaccine that caused serious lifelong problems. Later, I was
posted with the State Department in Vietnam and India. I
was subjected to constant inoculations and was very ill as
a result of more tainted vaccines and the methods forced
on me by the Government to treat my symptoms. I was medically
evacuated and unable to work at a normal pace for more than
ten years. During this time, my own system of healing evolved.
It began with a study of illness from
what we might called a spiritual perspective. I meditated
and read and began to understand the symbolism of diseases.
I grounded this by reading modern medical studies that helped
me to interface the esoteric and exoteric aspects of disease.
At that time, I was deeply influenced
by my own meditations and the insights that were given to
me during my times of deepest receptivity to the unseen worlds.
The complete uniqueness of every individuals circumstances
overshadowed all the generalities that dominate modern medicine.
It was clear that we are all exposed to similar pathogens
but our reactions differ as should therefore the treatments.
My first prepared lecture was "astroendocrinology," my
study of the relationship of the subtle aspects of the psyche
to the functioning of the endocrine system. I flew to San
Francisco but was not permitted to deliver the paper. Nevertheless, "astroendocrinology" was
the first of the four cornerstones of my work. The second
involved stress. People have skill in some areas and a lack
thereof in others. What causes stress and how we handle it
is also therefore unique to each individual.
The third stage of my system of healing
was energetic. Knowing that there are sweeping differences
between individuals, I sought to understand the imbalances
and the measures that restore balance. It was at this time
that I developed my material on Kitchen
Doctor, basic herbal and dietary strategies that relieve
symptoms (but do not actually cure disease.) I built up this
very practical system after much study of Ayurveda,
but I was influenced by other Eastern systems of healing
as well. The dietary principles and measures were followed
by the herbal; and, I am happy to say that I am now a great
admirer of the healing gifts of plants.
The fourth piece of the system stemmed
from my efforts to reconcile the psychological dimensions
of experience with the spiritual forces that impart life
to us. A part of this work began when still very young, a
part when I became involved with music
therapy, and a part when I went through my own dark night
of the soul. I realized that I had to facilitate ways for
the dark and light to meet in a place of mutual understanding
and cooperation. I also understood that while we cannot live
for self alone, we also cannot live without inspiration.
Somewhere between the need to respond to Gods will
and the need to survive as individuals, we have to make peace.
I forged the tools to assist the awakening of certain insights
that I feel make for a relatively complete system of healing.